every sec every min im tinkin of u..wat if 1 day i relise i cant tink of u anymore..? wat will i do?! i dun noe bt i noe I LOVE YOU WIF ALL MY HEART..!!
I used to think
I had the answers to everything
But now I know
Life doesn't always
Go my way, yeah...
Feels like I'm caught in the middle
That's when I realize...
(Chorus)
I'm not a girl
Not yet a woman
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While I'm in between
(Verse 2)
I'm not a girl
There is no need to protect me
Its time that I
Learn to face up to this on my own
I've seen so much more than u know now
So tell me to shut my eyes
I'm not a girl
Not yet a woman
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl
But if u look at me closely
You will see it my eyes
This girl will always find
Her way
I'm not a girl(I'm not a girl don't tell me what to believe)
Not Yet a woman(I'm just tryin to find the woman in me, yeah)
All I need is time (All I need)
A moment that is mine (That is mine)
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl
Not yet a woman
All I need is time (is All I need)
A moment that is mine
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl
Not yet a woman...
well..dis song is exactly wat im feelin rite now..@ dis pt of time..mum n dad i noe u all wan 2 protect mi fr harm..bt there is no such ting..in life there is pain n happiness... it works tt way...
thinking of you @ 8:07 PM
Monday, February 21, 2005
im down..y cant she tell mi herself?! cos she dun wan 2 hurt mi?! cos she wan 2 protect mi?! wat is dis?! i haf e rite 2 noe dun i?! wat's her reasons....?! for both qn which are in my mind...sigh..i hate dis life..!! dis 'jailed' life... wif no1 2 understand mi..no light shone 2 mi..no directions..onli protection from them which i DUN NEED...n dun wan...!! well..i wan 2 learn on my own..i noe she wan 2 protect mi fr gettin hurt..but tt way i wun learn..wun noe e pain..n life is so bleak n boring...!! isn't tt e sayin: no pain, no gain? suddenly i feel like bleedin... cos my heart is bleedin so badly.....
thinking of you @ 6:57 PM
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
just watched 'touched by an angel' 1st time realised it's a great show..veri inspirational..hmm bt well..im nt a strong believer in GOD..i muz admit tt..
well e endin made mi tink abt life..n well..abt love...i dun noe hw 2 put it in words though.. haha..oh well..i shall catch tt show..yupx..
haha..end of update ba..dun noe wat 2 write..haha..
thinking of you @ 5:09 PM
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
Oh god please tell me
What I could have done
To deserve this life
That has never seen the sun
Everything keeps getting worse
Than it ever has before
It's hard for me to do anything
For this pain I can't ignore
I have no one left
Who truly cares for me
And theres no possible way
That you could disagree
I try so hard
Each and every day
To put this pain aside
In any little way
I'm such an awful person
In everything I do
I never thought I'd say that
But I know that much is true
Will there ever be a time
Where I clearly see the light
Is there any way
To ever make this right?
So for now this is where I stand
Not knowing what to do
All alone and confused
And feeling oh so blue..
by KATHERINE
hmm dis poems is EXACTLY wat i feel sometimes..nt 2day..im happy 2day..haha..bt juz realised there is some1 out there whom i dun noe feels e same way as i do sometimes..ya.. hope she wld find e light 1 day....
thinking of you @ 5:40 PM
Monday, February 14, 2005
HAPPY VDAY EVERY1...!! i love u all lots..! esp my precious dear..!!
thx 4 e present..n lunch treat @ swenses.. >.<>i love u extrmely much..! HUGX..! MUACKX..!
thinking of you @ 8:06 PM
Sunday, February 13, 2005
1 more day 2 vday..n our 2yrs anni..!! so happy..nv tot we wld last 4 so long..though we had our ups n downs..n my doubts..im glad we can last 4 so long n still b happy 2gether..cant wait 2 spend tml wif u..I MISS U SO MUCH..! I LOVE YOU LAO GONG..ALWAYS WILL..NO MATTER WAT HAPPENS 2 US.... dis i promise u...
HAPPY EARLY BDAY EVERY1..!!
thinking of you @ 11:18 AM
Saturday, February 12, 2005
Tonight you're mine completely
You give your love so sweetly
Tonight the light of love is in your eyes
But will you love me tomorrow
Is this a lasting treasure
Or just a moment's pleasure?
Can I believe the magic of your sighs?
Will you still love me tomorrow?
Tonight with words unspoken
You say that I'm the only one
But will my heart be broken
When the night meets the morning sun?
I'd like to know that your love
Is love I can be sure of
So tell me now and I won't ask again
Will you still love me tomorrow?
thinking of you @ 1:34 PM
Friday, February 11, 2005
2day went 2 sentosa beach..haha..xiao wei ask mi pei her..den go lo..yupx..woke up early 2day.. almost cant wake up cos i stayed up 2 update my diary..write fin e letter 2 jie..den do fin her present..*i still cant figure wat 2 buy 4 dar yen ching* n do a bit of vday present..*yawn* i technically spt for like 5hrx..haha..im nt used 2 slpin 4 so lil hrx anymore..haha..wonder hw 2 get use 2 it again when sch starts..haha..
ok back 2 e sentosa trip..i had a GREAT time! haha..went cyclin wif xw jie..den ya..took pics wif my digi cam..haha..we 2 gone crazy!! haha..as usual..shall uplaod e pics soon..yupx..n haf 2 send her..haha..den met up ruth n her grp..suppose 2 go wif them de..bt xw jie last min say both of us go..den ok lo..beta oso cos i'll feel out of place dun noe them ma..ya..nw my leg achin..haha.. 2long nv exercise liao..yupx..arms a bit pain oso..oh well...
den 2+ meet wif precious dear..i was late! sorry..made u wait so long 4 mi..wif an empty stomach oso..sorry!! den pei him go find gameboy stuff..haha..ard bugis..walk walk walk haha..legs were so weak..! den 5+ went off cos he gt 2 work..yeah..so tired nw..tml mayb gg out aiyo..dun noe if my legs will work..haha..oh ya..i finally brought him hm yest..2nd day of cny.. it was ok la..yupx..my parents juz tell mi dun get 2 serious..i guess they wan mi 2 get my piorities rite n 2 conc on studies 1st..ya..typical parents..haha..bt ya..they haf 2 care rite?nt easy...
vday is mon..wonderin if i say i gg out wif him they will let ma..haha..oh well..i shall try..i learnt my lesson..if u dun fight 4 wat u wan..it wun come...yupx..miss ya loads precious dear..!!
i love u precious dear...
thinking of you @ 8:18 PM
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
HAPPY CNY EVERY1..!! haha..sunddenly i like so crazy abt cny..well..i onli like it cos can go out..n cos can wear new clothes..wahahaha..n make myself look nice..though im ugly..haha..
last nite my uncle wanted go chinatown..aft dinner we went lo..it's like 10+ pm liao.. haha..so late rite? nv go out so late b4.. haha..bt on e road gt so many ppl sia..wah..on e way there i already veri sian cos so many cars..chinatown sure a lot of ppl de lo..n i hate crowds..haha anyway..had 2 squeeze past ppl..den some veri inconsiderate lo..they wan pass..bt gt a crowd there they juz squeeze..dun care abt others de..aiyo..wait paitently ma..oh well..den saw fireworks..haha..cos they celebrate e countdown den dad took a video of e fireworks..haha..it's nt as gd as e real 1 bt @ least can rem.. >.<>
2day is 1st day of cny..sian..i dun like 2 go visitin..oh well..tml is 2nd day..! stress..he comin den dun noe if my parents rem..i dun dare ask them..haha..hmm..hope so ba..yupx..my heart beatin so fast since yest..or is it mon?? aiyo..tink i gg haf heart attack soon..haha..or my heart will drop out..i noe i stress 4 nth..bt den dun noe if my parents will accept him nt ma..rite? oh well..dun wan tink..no use oso..just pray 4 e best..!
feb liao..means results shld b comin out liao..cant believe jan pass so fast..! tt day when meet xiao wei..didnt felt like i didnt c her 4 2mths..haha..miss those days man..those days in class..talkin..laughin..crappin..gg crazy..wahaha..bt well..we've close tt chapt of our lives..e chapt where we enter sec sch..n fin it..there's joy n sadness..bt i believe all of us has grown a lil..yupx we've made mistakes bt let's all learn fr it..some mistakes take time though... haha..enough of dis nonsense..
hope every1 collect many many and baos..heex
thinking of you @ 1:00 PM
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
yest's outin wif xiao wei was fun..though... haha..well..it's great 2 c her again..n laughin tellin stories..hearin stories..haha..thx!! lata gg write lata 2 her ba..yupx..cos meetin wif her yest made mi tink a lot..yupx..
im so tired nw man..stayed up yest 2 do sth..den slp @ 1.30..im such a pig..haha..nt used 2 slpin 4 short periods anymore..tired man..oh well..tink i shld b stayin up again 2day..ya.. dun like slpin early..haha..
my mum ask mi bring him hm on thur..scared..n nervous..bt sooner or lata oso will haf 2 do dis de..n since he so eager..i knew it!! my mum tot i juz started wif him..haha..den she stearted askin more yest..well..im more afraid of my dad's qn..bt he doesn't seem 2 noe tt he is e same guy i told him abt in sec3..tt i lied 2 him..sigh..e truth will come out sooner or lata ba so i will still haf 2 confess..rite? yeah..well..
2day is CNY eve..i dun feel e festive mood..bt seein my sis so excited abt it remind mi of e days when i was young..i haf no idea y i dun feel e same anymore..i mean every1 is excited 2 collect red packets rite? even teens cos they get richer..haha..well..mayb it's cos everytime i go visitin i sit there is stare into space..haha..i mean there's like no1 there 2 talk 2..recently i went 2 my grandma place 4 dinner..den all my uncles n aunts there..*except 1 fam..* den i saw 2 of my cousins..they used 2 b veri close..everytime they c each other they talk a lot..tt day both were like strangers..sigh..remind mi of mi n my cousin..i c them like veri sian oso..mayb it's cos all of us haf our own lives nw..frdx..den we dun keep in contact even as cousins..e gap widens ba..1 ting is 4 sure..i miss those innocent days..e days when we dun haf 2 tink so much..no worries everyting our parents do 4 us..onli afraid that we get scoled by parents or teachers..haha..bt well every1 grows up ba..yupx..
we close each chapt of our lives wif heartaches.. bt in each chapt we learnt our mistakes n get more precious knowledge abt life...
thinking of you @ 9:28 AM
Monday, February 07, 2005
lata meetin xiao wei jie 4 a while..haha..so happy..it's been sometime since i met up wif her..since our grad nite..!! haha..
sigh i cant make out e effect of e present i gonna make sia..it's so ugly..!! sigh..i dun noe hw noe leh..suan le..i'll tink of sth..sigh..hope e other part works out..
thinking of you @ 10:40 AM
Sunday, February 06, 2005
There was a girl i knew who always wanted to be the one to stand out from the crowd
Always believe that she was gonna live her dreams..
That what when down was gonna come around for all the
Doubters non believers the cynical that once were dreamers..
One of these days you'll open up your eyes and you'll realize ..
[Chorus]
That girl was a one time teenage drama queen
A hot, tough everyday wannabe...but she'll have changed her destiny..now she's a somebody.
That girl was a wild child dreamer but she found herself.
Cuz she believes in nothin else and you'll look back and you won't believe that girl was me.
Armed with an attitude that she knows how to use.
She's gonna get there any way she can.
Now she knows what she wants no one is gonna stop her nothings ever gonna hold her down.
For all the doubters non believers the cynical that once were dreamers..
One of these days you'll know that you were Wrong..(who would know)
[Chorus]
That girl was a one time teenage drama queen
A hot, tough everyday wannabe...but she'll have changed her destiny.. now she's a somebody.
That girl was a wild child dreamer but she found herself.
Cuz she believes in nothin else and you'll look back and you wont believe that girl was me.
Life is a work of art you gotta paint it colorful,
Can make it anything u want don't have to stick to any rules
You don't need a high IQ to succeed in what you do,
You just gotta have no doubt just believe in yourself.
Doubters, non-believers.. once were dreamers.
One of these days you'll open up your eyes... and you'll realize
[Chorus] 2x
That girl was a one time teenage drama queen
A hot, tough everyday wannabe...but she'll have changed her destiny.. now she's a somebody.
That girl was a wild child dreamer but she found herself.
Cuz she believes in nothin else and you'll look back and you wont believe that girl was me...
LINSAY LOHAN...
believe in urself.. dun eva gif up becos u met up obsticals in life.. make ur dreams come true..!!
thinking of you @ 6:17 PM
Saturday, February 05, 2005
tot of a qn last nite..
which is worst? to b veri confident of ur results bt u did badly in e end or 2 b sure u did badly n ur results prove tt u did badly..?
was tinkin abt o lvl results..so tot of tt qn..
lost tt motivation 2 study hard 4 theory again..is it always like tt 4 him 2..? oh well..
I thought i new what love was
then i met you
I thought i had been in love before
but now i know it wasnt true
But if i think i love you
how can i know this is love
once i know what love is then i can truly believe in us
but until that day arrives
i will spend the other days starring into those beautiful eyes
making since of this world
making since of me and you
making since of everything i do
because i love being with you...
by MEGAN
i'll always b here 4 u precious...
thinking of you @ 2:59 PM
Friday, February 04, 2005
2day went to his aunt house..haha..his aunt take care of 1 baby..she quite cute..haha..haven 1yr old yet..ya..so nt reali a lot of fun ba..den once i carry her..carry quite long..till my hand ache.. haha..mayb i carry e wrong way? haha..
hmm..nth much 2 say liao ba..next wk cny liao..sian man..i dun reali like it..sigh wat 2 do? haha..den vday comin liao..dun noe wat i plan 2 get 4 him can work out nt..haha..oh well.. dun noe where 2 go..
Thursday, February 03, 2005
Rolfe: You wait little girl on an empty stage
For fate to turn the light on
Your life little girl is an empty page
That men will want to write on
Liesl: To write on...
Rolfe: You are sixteen going on seventeen,
baby it's time to think
Better beware, be canny and careful,
baby you're on the brink
You are sixteen going on seventeen,
fellows will fall in line
Eager young lads, and roues and cads
Will offer you food and wine
Totally unprepared are you, to face a world of men
Timid and shy and scared are you,
of things beyond your ken
You need someone older and wiser,
telling you what to do
I am seventeen going on eighteen,
I'll take care of you
Liesl: I am sixteen going on seventeen,
I know that I'm naive
Fellows I meet may tell me I'm sweet,
and willingly I believe
I am sixteen going on seventeen,
innocent as a rose
Bachelor dandies, drinkers of brandies,
what do I know of those
Totally unprepared am I,
to face a world of men
Timid and shy and scared am I,
of things beyond my ken
I need someone older and wiser,
telling me what to do
You are seventeen going on eighteen,
I'll depend on you...
thinking of you @ 9:49 PM
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start...
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold on to the truth in your heart.
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I.
Souls and the wind must
Learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let us come home to stay.
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll byFor you and I.
When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts,Every one.
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll byFor you and I...
thinking of you @ 8:02 PM
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
And I Never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you
And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes
and try to feel the way we do today
And than if you can't remember.....
Chorus
Keep smiling
Keep shinning
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
that's what friends are for
In good times
And bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for
Well you came and open me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you....